No doubt, she was aware of my lust and was concerned for my
spiritual welfare. The booklet
prompted me to give Christ a fair hearing. The words of Sir Francis
Bacon, quoted by R.A. Laidlaw, seemed eminently logical: Neither to accept
nor reject, but to weigh and consider.
And indeed, is this not an important goal of evangelism?
To encourage people to come to the Word of God with an open mind and to weigh and
to consider the gospel of Jesus Christ?
And so I began reading the Bible for myself. Since the Bible claimed to be the
Word of God, I decided to take it at face value and listen to what God
wanted to say to me. Jesus Christ's very first message to me in Matthew 4:17
was to repent for my sins, "... Jesus began to preach, "Repent,
for the kingdom of heaven is near.""
God's righteous standard, as revealed in Jesus Christ,
must come to every serious inquirer as a light, showing us our sinfulness
and Gods wondrous plan of salvation. In Corinthians 4:6, the Apostle Paul
described his experience and implied that it was the common experience for a
"For God, Who commanded the light to shine out of
darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of
the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ." So the Lord opened my
eyes, as I read those solemn verses, to recognize that the root cause of my
lustful thinking was unwarranted rebellion and lust.
What, then was left for me to do? I had broken God's law already, and I was
guilty before God. In desperation I simply turned to Christ and called on
His name for salvation. "Lord, if I've never trusted in You as my
Saviour before, I do so now. Lord, I believe: Please help me with my
questions about my new belief."